A man walks down the street, it´s a street in a strange world, maybe it´s the third world, maybe it´s his first time around...

I´ve been in Peru for about 2 weeks now, and right now it´s hard to articulate what´s been happening. I´m still processing so much of it. I´ve had 3 ayahuasca ceremonies so far, and each one has been quite different. I´ve also been meeting lots of people, people who have come to seek similar things. Everyone has been really wonderful.

The first week was really hard, I was racked with doubt about being here, and was experiencing a lot of fear surrounding ayahuasca and other uncomfortable things about my new living situation. But I persisted, and now it´s been about 2 weeks and I am feeling much more comfortable and peaceful regarding my experience here.

The group from Juan´s house went into the jungle today, and Justin and I decided to stay here. We´re going to do other plant medicine remedies & most likely go into the jungle next week. Even though I know it´ll be a hard trip, I am really looking forward to experiencing the jungle and the peace that it has to offer.

Everything is so new, but I am getting more used to the culture & the way things are done here. It feels much more familiar and for that I am glad. America seems like a dream. Similarly, my past seems like something that never happened. I have always been in Peru. I think that is a product of living in the present moment.

Like I said, things are still being processed...I have seen & done so much. But know that I am glad to be here, to be alive, and to be experiencing such joyous and difficult things, even if I may not feel that way in the moment. I feel like day by day I am peeling off layers of myself, like an onion, and seeing the beauty that´s inside. Of course, it is difficult to peel off these layers, and incredibly painful at times, but afterward I always feel stronger & more purposeful.
I hope everyone is well & happy.